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balsamandashMore lists. Lists are good. Lists are useful. I need to stop immediately brainresonating to "dear [x], here is a list of things" every time I go to start one. But lists are good.
- names
- adding on to mine. i feel like i want more to it. there's a middle name i have an eye on because i'm fond of one of the diminuitives and don't hate the sound of the full thing, i just... feel silly using it and can't tell you why.
- writing pseudonyms. i still don't mind Morgan Byrne, i just... don't know. for that matter i still like The Witchy Wordsmith as a... not penname but a writerly identity? but doing things with it is hard.
- religion
- how to start looking for a fitting pantheon/patron
- if i want to make an altar when i move. how, where, and what i would do with it.
- learning to meditate or finding a replacement for it as a practice.
- working with connections.
- rediscovering tarot.
- kink
- whether this wanting of things is a general restlessness trying to find a home or an actual desire.
- people
- how to learn to talk to them when i want to
- self-care
- mental health diary. physical health diary.
- scents to ground with. routines to ground with. how to make them.
- things that comfort even when hurting. things that make me laugh even when sad.
- "it is useful knowledge for living to have a list of things that are good no matter what."
- ways to remind myself i am worth self-care when i don't feel like i deserve it.
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Date: 2015-02-03 05:18 am (UTC)As for me: Uuuugh, I still feel silly and I don't know why, but -- Andromeda? I still like Meda as a name. And both August Andromeda and August Andromeda Thorne have a rhythm/pattern that sounds nice to me? I can't even tell you how/why but they do.
Religion: Maaaaaybe? Movable is nice because if I get to the habit of doing rituals I can drag it to the middle of the room but. Bah. Altars are weird. Religion is doing weird things to my brain right now, don't mind me.
Kink: I... words are hard? I just. Want things. And I'm not even sure what anymore. I just. Want things. I'm trying?
Self-care: On the one hand physical seems like a good idea. On the other, I think I am more likely to keep up with something virtual, and possibly that is put in a place where more than just me can see it.
Yeah, that sounds like a plan. We will hit things next week or something? <3
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Date: 2015-02-03 05:26 am (UTC)Yeah, I know I'm a little bit but it sounds good? Like, in my head the names work. And even if I were to Georgia S. Barnes or Georgia M. Barnes, they work, y'know?
Religion: I will keep an eye out for another, or if not, I will re-purpose the one we have. I need to clear it off and wipe it down anyway, so adding some wood on top wouldn't be a big deal and even if you don't use it, having a steady surface by my bed won't be bad.
Kink: Well, can you tell me what you're not thinking? Like what are the things you don't want or feel like you don't need right now. Alternatively, you can seriously just babble at me through IM or the phone if need be.
Self care: Okay, how about both? You can turn it into a bit of a habit/ritual thing in which you write in the virtual journal and then pick a day wherein you plug in the highlights into a paper and pencil one. It can be a while thing wherein you take a bath, put a scent you like, or light candles or whatever and plug in the notes for the week/month/whatever.
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Date: 2015-02-03 05:48 am (UTC)It does sound good! I encourage the thing to be honest. Please don't think I wasn't encouraging the thing. Encouraaaaage.
Religion: <333333 That works for me. And. Yes. Thank you. Things.
Kink: I don't know? I don't know what I want or don't or anything. Everything is kind of boiling over. I think the disconnected with people/displeasure with self is just trying to channel itself into the area and words are not... really presenting themselves. If I can scrape them up I will share them but I don't even have them for myself.
Self-care: Maaaaaaaybe? Mrrrh, maybe. I might start brainstorming things I'd want ot keep track of (because having a template might be easier than saying "start writing about how you feel!") and figure it out from there.
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Date: 2015-02-03 06:00 am (UTC)I am doing the thing. I feel horribly silly but I am doing the thing.
Religions: Woooosh! I will talk to my mom about getting some plywood and what we need to do to get it set up.
Kink: Mmmkay. Well, I am still here to listen if you need me to, okay? I love you and wanna help where I can.
Self care: If you do a template, let me know? I could probably use it too, as I would really like to get into a similar habit (an dneed to for my therpay anyway).
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Date: 2015-02-03 06:08 am (UTC)And YAAAAAAY. :D
Selfcare: I will shove the template at you when I get it done or as I get it done. I don't know if what works for me will for you, but.
And just in general, hearts. a million hearts. aaaall the hearts.
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Date: 2015-02-03 06:10 am (UTC)