i'm building a body where our design has failed

So I broke my phone in a fit of angry stupid, I spent Sunday knocked down with an ear infection that still isn't gone away, I've been stupid with my money and buying things I want and suddenly I feel really guilty for it, and everything just kind of feels like a mess. I want to do creative things, but work has wrung every last drop of everything from me right now. I'm worn so thin and so numb at the same time; it's like I keep getting bursts of sick and twitchy and upset and angry, and then they just get smothered in the ever-present exhaustion.

And ... yeah, that's all I got. I'm working on not being useless, it's just not going very well lately.